Tänään satoi lunta.

Ei ensimmäistä kertaa. Mutta ensimmäisen kerran niin että se oli lähes niin kaunista että halusin itkeä.

Ikävöin. Kaikki rakkaat on niin kaukana.

Tai ehkä itse olen liian kaukana.

I don´t know where this fear came from
how I became so afraid of losing everyone
never been afraid of being lonely
now I´m becoming the one I´m most scared of being

I don´t know where this fear comes from
this fear of failing fear of letting everyone and myself down
its growing deep into my soul
making me all paralyzed and cold

It´s two steps forward, three steps back again
I´ll turn my face against it I won´t run
Courage and belif are my redeems
No one else can rescue me it seems

Cause if I don´t follow my heart this time
I´m gonna forget what this life is all about
I´m gonna take that path I´m going in on my own
I´m gonna take that fear and wear it like a crown

(Rebekka Karijord - Wear It Like a Crown)

Mistä tietää että on ylittänyt sen näkymättömän rajan, ettei voikaan enää sanoa että kaikki on ihan hyvin?

Pinkki on oikeastaan ihan kiva väri.

Tavallaan.

I wish I could breath, I wish I could stand.
I wish I had a chance here holding your hand.
Wish I could speak, I wish could talk
I wish I could breath

Since the first day, I was alive,
I feared we would meet here in the misty outside
I wanted to run, I wanted to hide
I wish I could breath

I fear I can't over come this place
I know your face, your hands
I wish I could breath.

I feel a chill deep in my bones,
Nothing can heal, the way my blood moans.
Nothing can quench, My bitter thirst
I wish I could breathe.

I grasp at my heart, That burns in my chest,
It's your precious art, That makes my soul stressed.
I run short of blood, light headed I swoon.
I wish I could breathe.

(Abney Park - Breathe)